I'm Not Perfect

I'm Not Perfect

by Alan Lewis Silva

Released 02/29/2016
Lusitone Records
Released 02/29/2016
Lusitone Records
This music is by an independent artist who made it with poetry in his heart, in its natural form. Download the $1 digital album at CDbaby.com.
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ALL SONGS WRITTEN BY ALAN LEWIS SILVA
All songs copyright © 2016 by Alan Lewis Silva


1. I’m Not Perfect

Dadadadada dadadadada
Dadadadadada
Dadadadada dadada—

I know a man

Who healed the sick
I know a man who made the dirty ones clean

I know a man
Who can do most anything
His name is Jesus

I know a man

He’s really not just that
He’s the King of the Universe

I know a man

She’s my friend
We go to the park,
And we play checkers

She moves this way,
And I move that
She does this thing,
And I do that
I will do almost anything
To be with her

I know a woman
I know a woman
I know a woman

We went through the tunnels
And saw Old Town
Before the earthquake,
Before the flood separated the land

We flew around in space
We talked about our futures
She’s very beautiful to me
For me, she’s very free

Her parents are rich
She doesn’t know that
Her parents have power
There’s some suggestion of that

They are livin’ in Tunnel Five
Tunnel Five has its own railroad station

Her name is
Kate
Her name in my dream
Is Kate

I know a man

He can do most anything
He came to this earth and saved us
From slavery to death
I know a man
I bow down and worship him
Because He is my God

His name is Jesus Christ,
The Son of God
Worshipping Him
Is worshipping the Father

I’m not perfect
I’m not perfect
I’m not perfect

But He is

Amen


2. I’m So Weary for You

I’m so weary for you,
Hang my soul on a meat hook
I’m in a basement mood

I heard the cocktail singer
Speaking of love in vain
As if talkin’ about time
Running down the drain

I’m so weary for you
Hang my soul on a meat hook
I’m in a basement mood

If it bypassing,
Do it silently
How can I deal with you
When I’ve had so much of me?

I’m in the chamber of blue roses

The unarmed guard stands correct,

The weight of love on his shoulder,

A naked body clinging to his neck

I’m so weary for you
Hang my soul on a meat hook
I’m in a basement mood

Don’t the world seem so useless?
When all what you want is such a hard reach?
Like the whale fattened and bloated
Making friends with the beach?

I’m so weary for you
You make me want solve
These dead end blues

A broken door might not pay
To push and push and push away
When there’s a stone in the hallway
That’s keepin’ you between the door and the wall

I’m so weary for you
Hang my soul on a meat hook
I’m in a basement mood

I went to the bank
I said,
“Give me the money
“Hand it over
“Don’t try nothin’ fancy”

I buy some nice clothes

I could buy your mother

I go where I wanna

I like money

Money in the morning
Money when I’m dead

Money when I’m sick
Money in my bed

I went to the bank
I said that I was loaded
They didn’t hesitate
They gave me what I wanted

I like money

I’m so weary for you
I’m in a basement mood
I’m so weary for you
Hang my soul on a meat hook
Hang my soul on a meat hook
I’m in a basement mood

Put on my blue suit,
And I headed to the border
I’m bank robber, baby
The rest of you are posers

I’m so weary for you
Hang my soul on a meat hook
I’m in a basement mood


3. Implicate Everyone

I woke up in the morning
With a body of blues
I used to dislike,
But now I love you

Living by Lake Charles
And the water’s swinging back
To the New Orleans
In the evening comin’ back

Oh, oo, o-oh, oh,
Implicate everyone

We laughed and we talked
And you said you’d take care of me
I’m sad again
But at least I’m free

I’m going home on Monday
Do I need to believe?
That what we got together?
Is the price of misery?

O-oh, oh, ooh,
Implicate everyone

I opened up my palm,
And I read my lines
Give me your hand darlin’
And fold it into mine…

I hope you understand,
I hope you understand
My mind

Ashes and dust
On my windowsill
I’m out the window
And the night is still…

Moonlight on the trees,
And I’m begging on my knees
“Won’t you come back to me, please,
“Jennifer?”

Oh, oh, ooh, oh,
Implicate everyone

It’s too much sorrow
For one heart to have
I got in the meadow
And always when I’m bad

I loved you in the mornin’
And in the evenin’ just the same
How did you get to be so special?
With such a common name?

Oh, o-ooh, oh,
Implicate everyone

O-oo-oooh,
Implicate everyone

O-oo-oooh,
Implicate everyone


4. In a Place Like This

Let’s go to the river,
Cavort in the tide,
Carry on as lovers
If it pleases your mind

Somehow in a place like this
I hear your name—

Somehow in a place like this
Did you lose your way?

Don’t come here, boy,
If you don’t want to ride
Take off all your clothes
She’s looking in your eyes

Somehow in a place like this
I hear your name

Somewhere in a place like this
Did you lose your way?

There’s a dangerous fella
Wants to give it to you
Well, don’t give him nothing
‘Cause he’ll stick it to you

Somehow in a place like this
I hear your name!

Somewhere in a place like this
Did you lose your way?


5. In Cahoots

In a town with pickup trucks
And ghosts in the sky,
People are talkin’ and life is slow
Like smiling eyes

Fill up the cup
See a dog go by
I just know a few things about books and
Butterflies

My girl is gone;
My wife’s grown up
I looked inside at what went up and down
I thought I had the answer in my hand
Nothing much is less than what I planned

Fill up the cup
See a hound dog go by
I just know a few things about love and
Butterflies

I can’t be wrong
If I’m not right
I shouldn’t be proud if I can’t smile

Some pulse in the air
Goes around the hills
I’d have to guess there will be some kind of bill

The TV said money exists
The Preacher said there’d be days like this
I could shave my head or grow a beard,
But whatever it is, it would still be weird

Fill up the cup
See a dog go by
I just know a few things about love and
How it flies


6. In the Morning

I woke up in the morning
I couldn’t believe

I found my baby
At another man’s knees

When I’m going back to Kansas,
Back to New Orleans,
Next time I get a baby
I won’t leave

I woke up in the mornin’,
And I saw the light

I didn’t know the difference
‘Tween wrong and right

And then I finally saw
And, oh, the shame
How can you ever love her dearly
When you know her name?

The wind blows east
The sun sets a-west
I been traveling by the trade winds
I don’t get no rest

I woke up in the morning
I got nothing to do

I spent my time whirling like a dervish,
Bein’ so love with you

Your cancelled check
Caught me in the mail

Your love was hoisted on my canvas,
But it didn’t make a sail

I woke up in the morning
I couldn’t agree

More or less on what the point was,
Though you stuck it to me

I been living in the Tropic of Cancer
In the heat I dwell

Not a minute too soon before my
Fifth or sixth season in hell

Now the full moon bleeds
And the river won’t bend
Swerving through this rotten canyon
I’m lucky I brought my poet’s pen

The corn in the field
Is simple to sow
The seed just falls by its tendencies,
And a lover’s seed’ll grow

I woke up in the morning
On a country hill

I built my house a-from your promises,
But I got my will, um-hmm…

And then it broke—
I had it remodeled


7. In This Town

In this town
Where we belong,
Man, it has
A great, big animal farm

Dogs on a leash
Cow on the fence

In this town
Where we belong
No sky above—


8. Internal Affairs

The poodle in a sweater
In the winter
The sun overhead shines on
Remember beards and umbrellas
And the dying oaks

New kite strings soar
And some toys
In a bag
Are hanging from a hand

In the morning,
Rock the boat from a dinghy
The angles of the clock tower
Suggest a compass

Internal affairs,
The eggs are hatching chicks,

And the wet ice drifts
As a car goes by
Remember Altamont
Passing an ambulance

They wish he didn’t care
For internal affairs
For internal affairs
They wish he didn’t care

An explosion rips the square
Fences hang from a gate
He never wanted to be present,
But he asks the future for more
And why

From where the north wind sways,
Overlooking every nation,
I spied upon a dell


9. Into a Day’s Work

She chased me away,
But now I’m feeding the animals
Feeding the animals
Feeding the animals

She made me a pig,
But I’m chasing the monkey thief,
Chasing the monkey thief
Chasing the monkey

It all goes into a day’s work

I went fishing for a fox,
And I caught a rabbit
I caught a rabbit
I caught a rabbit

I talked to frog
I was eaten by a mouse
Eaten by a mouse

It all goes into a day’s work
It all goes into a day’s work

I was meditating with the Buddha,
Drinking Dutch beer
His disciples read the sutra of the flower
At the top of the hill

In the Japanese house
Women are waiting
Women are waiting
Women are waiting

With their long hair on the ground
Meditating
Meditating
Meditating

It all goes into a day’s work
It all goes into a day’s work

I’m a lonely traveler
Fighting dissolution
Who sincerely
Transcends the illusions
I can’t read Sanskrit,
Hebrew, or Braille,
So hand me, sweet Buddha,
The key to the jail

It all goes into a day’s work
It all goes into a day’s work
It all goes into a day’s work


10. Iron Roses

Roses
Say games foresee her
A magical, singing
Cult leader
Riches and glitter
Rule the babysitter,
And one can see canals

Rome’s a song
In the days of
The iron rose,
In the days of wine and roses
Awaiting care

Soil takes the metal to me
Down a mountain stream
From falls of centuries

In the days of
The iron roses,
Awaiting care
Come with me


11. Is a World

In a world
Where the rules are free
There is no authority
Nor is there review

We can live on the edge
And on the edge of town
See the red harvest moon

See the red harvest moon

I see the tree
With its branches full
In August
Blowing in the wind

Will the seed cast away
A maid
Who cleaned the stars with a rag

With a clean wash rag

Woman is a world
Of written songs unsung
She can be the gemstone
Of scorn and love
That must be touched
In the songwriter’s heart

In the songwriter’s heart

Where can I go
And know what’s up?
Where the sidewalk takes me
I’m awake

My soul feels immune
As the darkness sets in
The words on pages keep me warm

Words on pages keep me warm

Woman is a world
Of written songs unsung
She can be the gemstone
Of scorn and love
That must be touched
In the songwriter’s heart

In the songwriter’s heart

Dodododododo…
Dodododododo…
Dodododododo…
Dodododododo…
Dodododododo…
Dodododododo…
Dodododododo…

Row me along
You didn’t have to trick
A pirate song
It arrived here on its own

The farmers are few
Besides the drifter who stayed
Is a world


12. Island Living

Well, there’s no motion in the ocean,
And I feel the same today
The prize they’ve given you is worthless
When you’re a castaway

And the sailors on the island
With their filthy names as scars
Are half the population,
And the rest of us are cars

Well, if you’d give me the chance
I’d make the Cinderella dance
If you’d give me the moment
To pull a rabbit from my hat

Well, I’ve been livin’ in the desert
With the animals and such
Where the Moon is just a crescent
That I hold up with your crutch

Maria, Santa Barbara,
And a million Jennifers
Have given me their nightmares
‘Cause I’m the one with dreams,

But if you’d give me a chance
I’d make the Cinderella dance
If you would give me a moment
To pull a rabbit from my hat

Now the war is made of jelly
If you put it on your toast,
Which reminds me of the prison
Where they put the Holy Ghost,

So the sailors cooked a dolphin,
And they raised a golden calf,
Twice the pleasure for your leisure
And only half the cost

Well, if you’d give me the chance
I’d make the Cinderella dance
If you would give me the moment
To pull a rabbit from my hat


13. It Should Be Free

It should be free
It should be free
Give me what I need
Give it to me
Give me what I need

It should be free
It should be free

Free, free, free
Free, free, free

The motions were made
The sea was crashing
You have to hold it back
Until it’s dying

She held the cup in front of her,
And she was drinking
She was drinking
She was drinking

It should be free
It should be free
Give me what I need
Give it to me
Give me what I need

It should be free
It should be free

Free, free
Free, free, free

In the caves where the coyotes were sleeping
Two campers by the Indian Creek
Were staying away for a while
By the Indian Creek
By the Indian Creek
By the Indian Creek
Give me what I need
Give it to me

It should be free
It should be free

It should be free
It should be free

Free, free,
Free, free,

Give it to me
Give it to me

It should be free
It should be free

Beautiful woman of my dreams
You’ve been eying me
Up and down,
Undressing me

Give it to me
Give it to me
Give me what you need
Give it to me
Give it me, pretty woman
Give it to me

It should be free

It should be free
It should be free

Free, free
Free, Free

It should be free
What I need for you
What I need for me
What I need for you
What I need for me
Give it to me
Give it to me free


14. It’s an Emergency

As long as I keep moving
I think that I’ll do fine
I saw the sergeant yesterday
Breaking up the people’s backs

He said, “Keep it moving
There’s nothing to see here,”
Just a couple of dead kids
From the wrong side of the tracks

I’m telling you
It’s an emergency

The reporter found their bodies
Dumped inside trench
Where there used to be a playground,
Where there faces used to live

I saw it on the TV,
So I guess it must be true
I voted for conscience,
But I will pay for it, too

I’m telling you
It’s an emergency

It’s an emergency
Because there ain’t no place like home
In a building with no ceiling, no protection,
And no one,

But there are plenty of distractions
Like the war and credit debts,
But this is no place to lay your head down
It’s no place to fall in love

I’m telling you,
It’s an emergency

They say the rich pay too many taxes
For the cost of cleanin’ up
The world they’re corrupted
It’s surely a mistake to maintain any practice
That continues the errors they’ve conducted

I’m telling you
It’s an emergency
It’s an emergency

I know it’s not my encounter
With the Home of the Brave
But I sing because the one it belongs to
Isn’t seen

Probably locked up in a jail
For some crap when he was twelve,
Spends his birthday in a cage
Never learning how to read

I’m telling you
It’s an emergency

You say you care:
You’re unpatriotic
Living in a dream:
Must mean you’re psychotic
While your DNA is sold
On the free market
“Free market!”
To the same institutions
That tell you who is crazy

I woke up coughing
The only figure in my room
Other than myself
Was Mt. St. Helens exploding

While half the world away,
Houses are imploding
From suicide bombers
Trying to topple the government

I’m telling you
It’s an emergency

Make it free,
Put it up
Try to make the world better
Don’t lose hope

While we’re burning up the planet
Peace comes on the wings of a Dove
Who flies like a kite
Tied to a child’s thumb

Children are the future,
I’m telling you

I’m telling you
It’s an emergency

I’m telling you
It’s an emergency


15. It’s Better Now

I think it’s better now
You’ve been gone too long for going
The sorrow opened a gate,
And it let them in

Red Scarecrow with a cowboy hat
And blue jeans is lost
Purple Cobra who fears sharks
Is fit to flaunt

But it’s better now
It’s better now
It’s better now
It’s better now

Mystic Diamond
In the skull of Fortune
Is living in the mind
Of a crazy Mormon

Teddy Grizzly, foreigner from Moroccan shores,
Is tempest tossed
Stone Lark
With a few dimes and stamps is stopped

But it’s better now
It’s better now
It’s better now
Ooh, oh, it’s better now
It’s better now

The war ended tomorrow—we lost
One way or the other
We had to pay the cost
It’s not our selves that died,

Just freedom in a shell,
Sinkin’ to the bottom
Of the deepest river
Flamin’ in Hell

But it’s better now
It’s better now
It’s better now
Oh, it’s better now

If we could only get it cheaper,
We’d have it for nothing,
But what would be the meanin’
Of another deaf, mute orphan?

How does one transmit a legacy
To those who cannot speak, listen, or feel?
How do we, as a people,
Reinvent the wheel?

But it’s better now
Oh, it’s better now
But it’s better now
Oh, it’s better now
The ecosystem is dead
We had a constitution
We had to kill the workers tonight
I had a final solution
For the bosses of the evil system

But it’s better now
Oh, it’s better now
It’s better now
It’s better now
It’s better now


16. It’s Not Enough

You wear a wig
You have lipstick
You have long eyelashes
And a big stick

You have a dress
You have legs
You have lips
You have me

But it’s not enough

You own the world
The own the men
You own the mint
You own everything

But it’s not enough

You see humpback whales
Like your kin
You take a picture,
And then you swallow it

You live in the desert
You have a house
You have a job
You’re married to the mouse

But it’s not enough
It’s not enough

You listen to music
When you feel like it
You can go upside-down
On a space target

You have a track
You got a pool
You’ve got ten slaves
You have endless rules

But it’s not enough

You walk on tiles
Made of marble
You have gold earrings
And sable

But it’s not enough
To make you
Feel able

Because it’s not enough

You have rockets,
And you’re getting guns
You’re getting everything
You need to be loved

You found a nice boy
Easily conned

But it’s not enough
It’s just not enough


17. Jack and Jill

Jack and Jill went up the hill
To fetch a pail of water
Jill came down, and Jack came running
He was the General’s daughter

He’d lose his head if Jill was found to be dead
You laugh, but he was crying

Went to the doctor the very next day
With all the words that he could say
Sayin’ to the effect: “You gotta help me, man
“I’m in deep shit”

Jack took a plane to Europe
Tryin’ to get away
The General got his army behind him
Then the dogs that slay

His life
But so he ran to Cuba…

Not for all the farms in Cuba
Not for all the farms here
Not for all pigs and the donkeys and the burros
And all the children in the rear

Of the house that he bought
With the blood on his hand
It wouldn’t come out
Lady Macbeth did stand and say
“I know what that’s like
“Don’t even try it
“Tonic water don’t help at all”

Nietzsche came to the suburbs
Tryin’ to stir up some trouble
He said, “I would like to find a nice house here
“Just kidding”

Ooh yeah, yeah, yeah
Wooooooh!



ALL SONGS WRITTEN BY ALAN LEWIS SILVA
All songs copyright © 2016 by Alan Lewis Silva
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